A day late and a dollar short.
I was very under the weather the past two days. I could have stayed in bed and slept for 48 hours. But I pulled myself together enough to get the boy to school on time and myself to work. It's not quite clear what was wrong with me. Certainly the UTI was taking some toll, though I had a host of other weird symptoms, including a raging headache (possibly due to caffeine withdrawal as tea is a bladder irritant), chest tightness, body aches and the inability to hold still (my legs were constantly moving).
Saw my therapist on day 7 and we discussed possible effects of the Lexapro. Besides being able to handle the birthday party, I also had a conversation with my mother the other night during which she said a number of things that would normally irritate me, but that didn't seem to bother me too much. She also said that I appeared to be smiling more during the session, but I chalked that up to the weird perma-grin situation that I think is connected to the clenched teeth situation. I certainly didn't feel smiley.
But, I made a conscious decision to accept an automatonic existence if it meant less anxiety and less self-doubt in my life. I guess I shouldn't complain if it comes with a perma-grin.
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